Faith

So lately I have been feeling sad and empty. I couldn't figure out why. I would just keep getting these feelings that something was missing. It started out with me constantly thinking about my mistakes. That made me really depressed. Then I started getting these feelings of emptiness. The feeling just wouldn't go away. It kept nagging and nagging at me until I would start to cry. The girls at work would ask me if I was OK. And I didn't know what to tell them. I really didn't know if I was OK. So I decided to just get it off my chest that I was having these feelings that I couldn't explain. I was scared that maybe something had happened to a loved one and I just hadn't found out yet, but my subconscious mind knew something was wrong. So I put up a status on facebook about my feelings. I received a message from someone close to me. She told me that she had been wanting to talk to me about joining to LDS Church for some time, but she didn't know how to approach me about it. As soon as I read this message, my eyes filled with tears. It was like she knew exactly what I needed. Now, for those of you that don't know, I was never baptised but I had attended Church on a few occasions. My husbands family is active in the LDS Church. I had had every intention of raising Cambry in the church. But I had never really thought about it for myself. Then when my sister in law left on her mission a year and a half ago, I began to think about it. I had never really understood the faith that people have in their religion. But after reading her emails, seeing her talk about how much faith she had and how much it has made her a better person I began to think that maybe that's what I need. I never expressed these feelings because I wasn't sure if I wanted to act on them yet. So when I read that message, and I felt so overwhelmed with joy, I knew that this is definately what I need. So lets hope that I can gain the faith that I need.