Regrets

Have you ever had to make a big decision, one that could change your life? And at the time you thought you knew what the right decision was. But then a few months down the road you start to realize that maybe you hadn't thought through that decision completly, and you begin to regret it. You start to go over it in your head what you could have done that would have been better. You start to think what would it be like now if you had made another decision. It almost makes you stressed out to the point that you want to cry. Even though you know that you can do nothing to change it. Well thats exactly how I feel now. I don't know why but for the last couple of weeks I have been feeling a lot of regrets about the decisions I have made in the last years. I have always been known to just kinda go with the flow. I've never really expressed my opinions much. In fact I never really gave much thought to the fact that I may have my own opinions about some things. And now looking back, I really regret just sitting back and letting others make my decisions. Now I'm not saying that those decisions were bad ones, not at all. But they weren't my decisions. And I just really wish that there was some way to go back in time and change things. But maybe there is a reason that those events took place the way they did. Maybe my life wouldn't be the way it is now if it weren't for my life taking that course. But I just can't stop thinking about my regrets. It seems one or another crosses my mind on a daily basis. That is so stressful, and its so not good for me. But I just don't know how to let it go. Although I have all those regets, I can honestly say that I am quite satisfied with my life right now. I guess thats all I really need. To be happpy in the pesent, let go of the past, and look to the future. I feel a little better now that I got that off my chest. I hope that I can get over this, its really holding me back from being who I really am. Sorry to those of you who see me on a regular basis, if I have been depressing.

Oh the Joys of Animals

Today was a fun day, or not. It started at 6:30 this morning when I realized that I had slept through my alarm to take "Lizzy" outside at 3:30 and she had pooped in her kennel. So I took her outside, then when I went into the kitchen to get something to clean out her keenel I saw that there were two piles of diarrhea. At this point I didn't know whether it was from "Lilly" or "Diesel". But when I realized what it was I saw that "Lizzy" had just finished eating one of the piles! Ugh, so disgusting. So, I hurried and cleaned uo the remaining feces and proceeded to clean out the kennel and put "Lizzy" back to bed. I had just layed down to hear an animal heaving like it was going to vomit. Well indeed it was "Diesel". That's when I realized that he's the one that pooped in the kitchen. I get that cleaned up and lay back down. I was almost asleep when I hear another heaving sound. Then I smell the disgusting smell of feces. "Lizzy" had just thrown up the poop she had just eaten. So I then cleaned out her kennel for the second time and finally went back to bed. I awoke at 9:00 and went to wake Jake and Cambry up. As I walk into the room I see that "Diesel" had pooped in our room. Then I see that he had thrown up on our bed. It went through both sheets and into the mattress. So I told Jake it was his turn to clean up after the animals! What a great start to the day! I ended having to take "Diesel" into my work at the clinic and shave his butt because he had so much poop stuck in his fur it was hurting him. Then throughout the day I had to deal with the dog peeing and pooping in the house. So needless to say I had a wonderful and eventful day. Hopefully the cat will get better, and hopefully I can keep up on letting the dog out more often!

"Lizzy"

So after some debate and trying out a million names for our new puppy, we have decided on "Lizzy". She seems to respond to that name really well. So our puppy is now eight weeks old, and is growing fast, although she is still quite small since she was the runt. "Lizzy" is learning quickly, potty training is a difficult thing but she is catching on well. She already knows what "No" means, which is really handy since she is always getting into trouble. "Lizzy" is adorable, though. I just love the way her ears sit directly on top of her head but yet they are slighty perked up. I'm so happy I got a dog. I know that its hard at first especially when they are so little, but its totally worth it. Dogs are the best companions, they love you unconditionly, the don't judge, and they are always there for you when your sad or sick. As long as you take care of them they will take care of you. Its been kinda difficult the last week though, because Cambry is still sleeping in our room so I have had to sleep out on the couch until the dog is more kennel trained and doesn't have to go out so frequenlty. But Jake is working on getting her crib up so she can go into her own room. Its definately time for that.

So Cambry is doin really well with the crawling, She has yet to get up on her knees, but she can do the army crawl well. I think she may be getting another tooth because she has been so fussy. No matter where she is, what toys she has or who's holding her she is fussing. Its so tiring trying to find a way to soothe her. The last few nights she hasn't gone to bed until almost 1am. Then she wakes up at like 5 or 6. She used to sleep for a good eight hours. Not any more. Its so frustrating, I just don't know what to do. I'm so exhausted by the time I get to bed especially on the days I work. I just can't continue staying up till 1 then getting up every 3 hours with the dog and then having Cambry wide awake at 6. I feel so bad for Jake, too because when I 'm tired I can be very mean. I feel so bad because I know its not his fault but I'm just so tired and with Cambry fussy all the time its hard not to snap at him. Luckily he knows that I'm that way so I don't think he takes it too personally. I just hope she can get back into her regular sleep schedule soon!

Our New Puppy

So for the last month or so I have been dying to get a puppy. I've been doing training to become a professional dog trainer and its very difficult to practice on a dog thats not yours. So I have been trying to convince Jake to let me get a dog. We decided that it would be best for Cambry, the cats and the dog to get one as a puppy instead of a full grown one. The cats don't really like dogs much, so it would be easier for them to adjust if the dog starts out smaller than them. And it would be better for Cambry and the dog if its a puppy, so that way it can grow up learning to deal with Cambry pulling on him. And she can have a buddy. So I finally talked him into it, and we found a lady on Ksl that was giving away free Border Collie and Chocolate Labrador puppies. So we went and picked one up today! She is seven weeks old and is the runt of the litter. She is so adorable and tiny. She has more of the border collie markings so far, but they tend to change after they lose their puppy fur. So maybe she'll be a chocolate collie! She is the sweetest thing ever. She loves to cuddle and play, but she gets worn out easily. Its so cute when she just plopps down where she's at and just goes to sleep! The reason I keep calling it "She" is because we haven't come up with a name yet. We are trying to come up with a cool name. Either one that is really unique or one that just fits perfect to her personality/breed. We were thinking like "Juno." But we haven't decided yet. So if you guys have any ideas please let me know!! I'm so excited to have my puppy now.

Cambry's Doctor Appointment

So Cambry had her appointment with the Doctor Yesterday. She now weighs 16.7lbs and is 27 1/4 inches long. She is longer than most babies her age which puts her in the 74 percentile for that. But she is lean, so she is at only 34 percentile for her weight. But the doctor says she is perfect. All of her joints are working great, and her development is right on track. Except that she hasn't started to crawl yet, but we are working on it. She wasn't able to get her shots this time because we got a new Doctor and apparently her first docotr's office wasn't doing their job right. Every doctor is required to record any vaccinations given at any age to the Utah database. Well they didn't record neither one of her sets so according to Utah, Cambry has not had any shots. So now I have to go get them from her doctor and update her status. Its so irritating when they don't do what they are required to do. Like my first Ob-Gyn that didn't tell me about a blood test result that I ended up being on blodd thinners throughout my pregnancy for and will have to do for every pregnancy! But Cambry seemed to like this new Doctor. She was actually laughing at him!! Unlike her first Dr., who treated me like I was just an ignorant young mother. She didn't really treat Cambry like she was a baby, she seemed to just be another patient to her. You would think that if your going to make a career out of treating children you should be a little more fun. Oh well, I'm happy with her doctor now and I like the facility better, its closer and they are easier to work in appointments if you need one that day.