Updates

So cambry is now 14 months old and she weighs 19lbs!! She is so tiny! But she is so healthy. She runs around like crazy now, and in to everything!! And of course she falls a lot. She has gotten a black eye from falling onto a toy, she stubbed her toe, and has scraped up her knees!! But she gets right back up and keeps on going! She loves to play with dolls and stuffed animals. She gives them all kisses and cradles them in her arms. She is such a girl! And she is a big tease. If she has something she knows she's not supposed to have, she will act like she is going to give it to, but then when she is just out of your reach she turns and runs. And she laughs the whole time! She can talk quite a bit now too. She can still say doggy and kitty, and no no. But now she says HI doggy and kitty. She can say "that", bubbles, and she can say please but it mostly just "ssss." Its so funny when she does it and people don't know that's what she is saying. She'll get mad if they don't give her what she wants when she says please! She can pretty well feed herself, just not with utensils. And she refuses to be fed! That makes it so hard to find good food to feed her when she always wants to feed herself. And she has started into the separation anxiety stage. She cries whenever Jake or I leave. She even cries when we just leave the room! It makes me cry when she does when I drop her off at the sitters. Its just so sad to have to leave your baby when she just wants you to stay so desperately.

She just finished her 1yr shots. There were six of them, so they had to be split up at two different visits. Its so sad to see her get shots. I have to help hold her down while she's screaming and getting poked in the leg! But she always gets a sucker out of it. That usually cheers her up pretty well.

So since the last post we have done a few outing. We went to the Living Planet Aquarium. She absolutely loved that! The sharks tank and the Penguins were her favorite. She got to touch a star fish, too. That she did by herself. I didn't think she would, but she just reached her hand right in there and touched it! Then she laughed, she thought it was so cool! We went to Copperton Park with the Yeates Family for Labor Day. She had so much fun running around on the gas. She never stopped, she just kept wondering around the whole time we were there! Next we want to take her to the zoo and the aviary! I can't wait to take her to the zoo. She is going to have so much fun.

Jake and I went with Analey, Justin, Paul and Mindy to the Dooms Day races ar RMR. That was a blast. They had a monster truck go over a trailer and some cars. Then they had a Mascot Demolition Derby. That was so funny watching a bunch of the Mascots get together and run into each other. Then the finale was the awesome trailer races. And if you don't know what that is, its a bunch os vehicles hooked up to some type of trailer. They race doing figure 8's so that there is a lot of collisions. The point is to damage as many trailers as possible and stay running for ten minutes! There are no cautions called. So trucks are driving over a ton of debris from the demolished trailers! Its the most exciting, and intense race! RMR has this every year for Labor Day. I would recommend to everyone that they go next year. But one thing, don't bring children under 5yrs. Its very loud, and can be kinda scary for the little ones. And there is a lot of chemicals in the exhausts of all the race cars. Its just not the best enviornment, in my opinion, for children under 5. There were women with babies there that weren't even old enough to hold their head up! I couldn't believe the ignorance some people have whe it comes to the health and safety of their new babies!!

Oh my she can walk!!

Cambry walked last night!! She took about 6 steps all by herself without even thinking about it! She had been walking around the front room with her push bike all night and then she looked at Deisel for a minute then just started walking towards him!! She laughed the whole way! So I had her stand up and then walk towards me while I kept moving backwards and she did it, all by herself. She was so proud of herself. And I couldn't be more proud, but I have been kinda dreading this day!! Now she can walk, and then she will be running! Aah, and I thought her crawling around was bad enough! Oh and she can climb onto the couch now too. And she can go both up and down the stairs and fast too! Now I really have to keep and eye on her every second. Oh boy, I'm not ready for this!!!! Where did me little baby go!!!!?????

One Year old!!

Cambry has now turned one!! I can't believe its been a years since I had my beautiful baby girl. Now she's a little girl trying to walk and feed herself. How did the time go so fast!?! She has been able to take about three to four steps all on her own, without holding onto anything! But she still prefers to crawl. Its so much faster and easier for her. She can clearly say Doggie now and everything is a doggie. She can feed herself with finger foods, and is trying to use a spoon, but she's not too interested in it most of the time. She has a new best friend she takes with her everywhere and sleeps with. We call him Orange Man. He is a Dr Suess character but I'm not sure which one. But she loves him! She will get so excited when she sees him, and she gives him hugs and kisses more than mommy and daddy get. She is a total girl, she loves all her dollies and stuffed animals. She hates her hands to be dirty, except when she is playing outside. And she loves to be outside, she gets so ornery if she hasn't been outside all day! She has become Daddy's little girl for sure now! Its so cute how excited she gets when he gets home from work. She starts screaming and bouncing up and down until he picks her up. Mommy doesn't even exist when daddy comes home.

We had her Birthday party on the 19th of June. She had a lot of fun. We got her a small individual cake that looked like a Lady Bug, that was the theme. She was spoiled with gifts of course. Get got lots of clothes and toys. She has a whole new wardrobe now! I'm more excited than she is! She didn't really like the cake much because she kinds fell into. I went to stand her and the seat and the table and she lost her balance and her hands went right into the cake. She started crying because her hands her just covered in cake. So I made her wipe her hands on Daddy, she thought that was kinda funny. Then Daddy wiped it on me. So the three of us were covered in cake. It was a lot of fun.

For the 4th of July weekend we went to Uncle Paul and Aunt Mindy's house in Logan. Cambry and Grandma went to the Logan Zoo while the rest of went to the Minnetonka Cave. She has fun looking at all the "Doggies" at the Zoo. Every animal she saw was a doggie. The cave was pretty fun. The stairs were really steep in some places though. There are 441 stairs that you have to go up and down twice. So a total of 882 stairs! But it was really fun , that was the first cave I've ever been in. Then we stopped and got Raspberry shakes and headed back to the house for a BBQ. Then on Monday we went to the Shipley's house for the Yeates 4th party. Had a lot of fun playing outside and with the kids. We played water balloon valley ball, that then turned into a water fight. Analey was the main target of the fight, but pretty much everyone involved was soaked! It was a lot of fun. I'll post pictures of everything when I get them!

Updates

So Cambry is now 11 months old. In less than one month she will be turning one!! I can't believe how fast the time has gone by. She has grown to be such a cute and fiesty little girl. She is very quite tall for her age but yet she is pretty petite at only 16lbs. She is learning to walk without support. Just the other she took like two or three steps without even thinking about it! I won't be surprised if she is completely walking by her birthday. She is also learning the fine motor skills like stacking things, put things through holes, and pushing buttons to make her toys play music. She loves to look at pictures in books, and be read to. She does very well at playing by herself, which is really nice. She can entertain herself for a good hour at home. She loves to torture the poor cats and the dog. Lilly doesn't really like her, she tries to avoid her. Diesel will put up with her for awhile but then runs off. And well Lizzy loves her. She licks her and plays with her. She lets Cambry climb and walk all over her, pull her ears. They are really good, except that Lizzy is getting bigger and even more clumsy. She doesn't understand the concept of walking around things. She always walks through or on everything. She tends to push Cambry over because she will walk right between Cambry and the couch when Cambry is standing up. I'm trying to teach her to go around things, but its not working so well. Cambry has also started to test us. She is doing the whole crying for what she wants that she can't have thing. So we have been just ignoring her and then about 30 seconds later she is over it and already playing with another toy. So I'm hoping that everyone else that watches her notices that that is what she is doing and will do the same. Just ignore her or give her another toy. DO NOT GIVE IN!! She knows how to get what she wants! So over all she is doing good, progressing really well, learning quickly and growing too quickly. But a couple weeks ago she came down with gastroenteritis. Its a stomache and instestinal infection that has been going around. She had diarrhea for a few days but acted normal so I didn't think much of it. Then on the fourth day she woke up and didn't want anything and was very cuddly but seemed tired. So I got her to take her bottle and as soon as she got done eating most of it she threw it right back up, three times!! And then she was crying and shaking and was really weak. So I took her in and they told me to give her nothing but pedialyte and water every ten minutes, then to try just bland foods food for the next day, then try formula. She got over it and has been ok since. But since she had such bad diarrhea she now has a really bad diaper rash. I have tried everything. Desatin, ButtPaste that the nurse gave me, A&D ointment, UdderCream. Nothing is helping and it doesn't help that she is filling her diaper every hour or even more often. I'm not sure what to do. I think its because she is eating more solids but I'm not sure. So if anyone knows any tricks please let me know!!

Granny Dan by Danielle Steel

So this past week I read the book "Granny Dan" by Danielle Steel. It is about a young Russian girl who is sent to a ballet school when her mom dies and she is left to live with her dad and four brothers. She becomes one of the best ballerinas in Russia but then becomes severely ill with the influenza. She is invited to stay at the Royal family's guest house to recuperate. While there she falls in love with her doctor, who in turn falls in love with her. However, he is unhappily married and two children and can't just walk away. And she has dedicated her life to ballet and doesn't want to just give it up. The doctor tries to convince his wife to a divorce but she won't. So a couple years go by and they still can't be together. They see each other every now and then. Then a revolution breaks out and the ballerina breaks her ankle. The doctor convinces her to go to Vermont with him to start a new life together. He stays with the Royal family and moves around with them while they try to find a safe place to stay. He sends the ballerina to Vermont to stay with his cousin and promises her he will follow shortly. Well he ends up getting stuck with the family and they all get executed including him. All her brothers and her father were killed in the war and she can no longer dance because of her ankle. So she stays in Vermont and marries the doctor's cousin and has a daughter. She is forced to forget everything from her past to raise her new family with a husband she doesn't truly love. How sad is that? I was so disappointed when I finished to book. Couldn't she have at least had some sort of happy ending. I know that is always what happens in books, but when you read a story where two people love each other so much and have to work so hard just to be together and then it all ends tragically with neither ever getting what they truly wanted, I just can't stand that kind of story. The rest of it was good but the ending just totally ruined it for me. I have read a lot of love stories and I love them, even if not everything works out, but I hate it when absolutely nothing works out and the main character loses everything. I don't recommend reading it unless you want to cry and be disappointed.

Thankful

I just have to say that I am very thankful for everything that I have. I have a wonderful husband you shows that he cares for me and tries to make me happy. I have a beautiful baby girl that lights up my whole world. I have a very good supportive family that helps me with everything. I have a good relationship with my husband. We rarely ever argue, like more than just stupid little things. We have never really had a big argument because we care too much for each other that we don't want hurt each others feelings. We have a nice comfy house, and at 20 years old thats a big accomplishment. We both have good jobs, so we don't have to worry too much about how we are going to make the bills. We both have a car to get where we need to. We have a good little family! I say this because I am seeing a lot of people on facebook saying that they are having problems with their significant others, or they are breaking up and that there is no hope! Its so sad to see that. Especially when there are children involved. I just wish that I could share with them all how Jake and I work things out but I know they probably won't listen to me. People seem to be convinced that relationships will just work themselves out if its meant to happen. Well guess what! It takes a lot of work and commitment to make a relationship strong and to be able to jump the hurdles and get through all the detours that come along with life and happiness. You have to go through a lot of bad and depressing things to get to be happy. You have to know what its like to be miserable in order to know if your truly happy. Just like you have to get ripped off a few times to know what to look for so that it doesn't happen again. You have to know what its like to be poor in order to know how to handle more money properly. But the harder you work to make things right and to make you and your family happy, the more it will work out. Yeah it may take years and lots of hard times to get to where you want to be. But isn't it worth it once you get there. If you've had to work hard for something, doesn't it feel so good when you get it? Compared to when its just handed to you? I know it does from experience. I also know that my challenges will never stop. Every day is challenge, its just about how you face that challenge and if you decide to over come it. If you just give up because its too hard, it will never work out. Life is hard and it never ceases to be that way. So suck it up and be the best that you can be. Don't be a whimp and give when things get "too hard." If it was too hard for us to handle, it never would have come across our paths. We need to learn from these things to make ourselves into better persons. We need to grow from these challenges and then our lives can move forward. Other wise our lives are boring and worthless. So think about that the next time you are faced with a challenge. Think about how you can overcome it. And how you can grow from the experience. Be a better person. You always have room for improvement.

Cambry is Now 10 Months Old

I can't believe how fast time goes by! In two months my little baby is going to be a year old. Where did all the time go!? Well now that she is 10 months she is trying to walk. She can pull herself up to the couch and other objects and furniture and then can walk while holding onto them. Every now and then she can stand unsupported for a few seconds before she falls. She'll be walking on her own by her first birthday. She can say a few words but doesn't know how to use them. She can just pronounce them. She can say "No", "hello", "uh-ho", "ooh" and then of course "momma" and "dadda." She will just randomly say these words while she is playing. Sometimes it will happen to work out that when she says things it will be the perfect response to something that was just said. Its pretty funny. Her attitude is getting worse, she either laughs when she is in trouble or she screams. She mostly screams though. She doesn't like to be held hardly at all, unless your walking around. Now that she can get around by herself she won't sit in one spot for long. She is becoming impossible to change. She hates to just lay there. She will try to roll over, she will wrap her legs around my hands as I'm buttoning up shirts then push my hands away. Its so frustrating, I wish I could tell her that if she would just sit still, it wouldn't take as long! But I know that its all just going to get worse. She does have a good side to her though! Her laugh is so cute and contagious, and if she starts laughing too hard, she will get the hiccups! Its so funny, when she tries to laugh and then hiccups at the same time! Oh and she is sleeping in her own room in her crib, finally. After nine months of sharing a room with her, I finally decided we were both ready for her to sleep in her own room! And she loves her new bed. She rolls all over in it. I have found her curled up at the bottom a couple times. Its so nice to not have to sneak into our room at night. But we need to find new monitors. The ones we have, the battery runs out after just two nights! And they take 9v batteries. So we need to find ones that either have a plug one or that don't waste batteries so much! We just can't afford to be buying 9volts every week. So if anyone has any suggestions to a good reliable brand, please let me know. Well thats the update on Cambry's progress.

Easter

Easter was a busy weekend. We colored eggs saturday night with Grandma Vonda. While Grandma and I were getting the color cups ready, Daddy was supposed to be watching Cambry so that she wouldn't grab the cups. Well, Daddy wasn't paying attention and Cambry grabbed the blue dye cup and spilled it all over her and Daddy and the floor! It was pretty funny. She had a look of utter astonishment on her face! Luckily we had an extra blue dye tablet. We continued to color eggs, and then when we were all done Cambry played with a couple of them. Then we slept in Sunday, thankfully Cambry let us! Then we got up, watched some Conference and then got ready. Cambry looked so cute in her easter dress! She looked so grown up. We then headed over to Grandma Vonda's house where she dug into her easter basket. It was so cute to see her go through all the toys and plastic eggs. Out of all the toys she got the plastic eggs were her favorite. And still they are her favorite things to play with. Its so funny the small things that they find the most entertaining. Now that Easter has past the next exciting thing is that Aunt Analey comes home from her mission on the 22nd! I can't believe that it has been a year and a half already! Cambry will be one in june!! Holy Cow!! My baby is growing up so fast. Oh, I just realized that I get to celebrate Mother's day this year, and not just for my moms. I am a mommy this mother's day! Wow! So much has changed in the last two years, I can't even believe it. I moved out on my own, got married, had a baby, bought a house! Whew I need to slow down. But thats not the way my life works, I always have some big thing going on! Whats next huh? Uh, I need a break. Who wants to watch Cambry for me! LOL no just kidding! But if you really want to...?

I have way to much to do!!

I hate it when I have so much to do and not enough time to do any of it. I need to clean my entire house! Every room needs to be cleaned, and each one is going to take at least an hour! Then I have to worry about bills and Cambry and training "Lizzy". Now I have to find time to fit in Mary Kay and working on my Personal Progess book from Young Womens. Cambry doesn't help much. She makes it very difficult to do it all. Oh and I have to find time to lose weight. I think I just need to have someone take Cambry for a day so that I can at least get my cleaning done. That alone will relieve so much of the stress. Its so hard to get home from a long day at work and walk into an utter mess! I am so unorganized. I need a system to get everything where it belongs and to keep it there. It also doesn't help much that I have absolutely no motivation to do any of it. Deep down I really want to, its just getting the motivation to get up and start it, and then finish it! Does anyone have any suggestions to help me out?

Cambry's Update

So its been a while since I updated on what Cambry can now do! She can crawl now. Not just the army crawl but a real crawl. And boy is she fast. Its great to see her progress, but man do I miss it when she couldn't get around so well. We had to go buy a baby gate so that she can't get into the kitchen or go near the stairs. She has also learned to pull herself up to the couch! She is getting pretty good at it too. I can't believe how quickly she learns to perfect things after figuring out that she can do something. She got to be really good at crawling within two days of learning she can get around that way. Now she is already starting to try on walk along the couch after she pulls herself up! Its like one day she can't do something then two days later she has not only figured out that she can, but has then perfected it! I have such a smart little girl. But boy does she have a temper! If things don't do what she wants or something gets in the way she will scream and tense up! For instance, she has a toy that has a little compartment to put toys and stuff in, and I showed her how to open the lid. She picked it up immediatley, but then she kept getting mad because she couldn't get it to stay open long enough to get the toys out! It was so funny, she eventually ended up just pulling it off! I started laughing when I saw her do it! I'm afraid she is like me a little too much. I get mad when things don't go my way! But she also like her daddy and thinks its funny when you tell her "NO." She'll be reaching for something so I tell her no, she then will look at me, smile, then reach for it again and again and again! What little stinker!!! Oh but its so hard to get mad when she smiles. She has the most adorable little smile. It just melts anyone who sees it! I have to say that I have the best baby I have ever met. She has been sick for the last two weeks. We took her to the doctor after about 4 days of a runny nose, he said that its just a cold and should only last a week. Well two days later she developed a chesty cough and it just got worse over the next 5 days. So I took her back and the doctor listened to her rattling lungs and decided to send antibiotics. He said it wasn't pneumonia, thank goodness. Now it has been about 5 days since she started the antibiotics and her cough is gone. She is so happy. Although, she was still such a happy baby even when she was sick. What a little trooper! I love my daughter with all my heart!

Thanks for the support!

I just want to thank everyone for their support. I was depressed and feeling empty, and now with the help and encouragement of my friends and family, I am now happy and content. I have decided, as I said before, to join the LDS church. I feel good about my decision. I know that it is not going to be easy. I expect challenges in my path, but I know that those challenges will only make me a stronger person and so prove that I am worthy. I really hope that I can become a better person for my husband and my children to come. I have plenty of room for improvement in just about every aspect of my life and I want to change that. I know that the only way for me to better myself is through persistence and with the help of those who love and care about me. I look forward to working with those people to better myself and therefore my life. I want to be a better wife to my husband. I want to do everything I can to make him happy. I also want to be the best mom that I can be. I want to be able to teach my children by example as well as by letting them learn lessons of their own. I want to do everything I can to be with my family for eternity. If the LDS church is true, I'm still learning and cannot form a decision yet, then I need to do everything I can to ensure my eternal family. If I don't get what I want from this, then at least I can say that I tried. What more could I ask for. I love my little family, and I never want to be apart from them. When my family grows I know that I will grow along with it. I have changed tremendously just from having my daughter. My heart grows ever more larger with every passing day that I spend with my beautiful. I can't imagine how large my heart will grow to include my future family. I look forward to the journey ahead. Bring on the challenge!!!!

Faith

So lately I have been feeling sad and empty. I couldn't figure out why. I would just keep getting these feelings that something was missing. It started out with me constantly thinking about my mistakes. That made me really depressed. Then I started getting these feelings of emptiness. The feeling just wouldn't go away. It kept nagging and nagging at me until I would start to cry. The girls at work would ask me if I was OK. And I didn't know what to tell them. I really didn't know if I was OK. So I decided to just get it off my chest that I was having these feelings that I couldn't explain. I was scared that maybe something had happened to a loved one and I just hadn't found out yet, but my subconscious mind knew something was wrong. So I put up a status on facebook about my feelings. I received a message from someone close to me. She told me that she had been wanting to talk to me about joining to LDS Church for some time, but she didn't know how to approach me about it. As soon as I read this message, my eyes filled with tears. It was like she knew exactly what I needed. Now, for those of you that don't know, I was never baptised but I had attended Church on a few occasions. My husbands family is active in the LDS Church. I had had every intention of raising Cambry in the church. But I had never really thought about it for myself. Then when my sister in law left on her mission a year and a half ago, I began to think about it. I had never really understood the faith that people have in their religion. But after reading her emails, seeing her talk about how much faith she had and how much it has made her a better person I began to think that maybe that's what I need. I never expressed these feelings because I wasn't sure if I wanted to act on them yet. So when I read that message, and I felt so overwhelmed with joy, I knew that this is definately what I need. So lets hope that I can gain the faith that I need.

Regrets

Have you ever had to make a big decision, one that could change your life? And at the time you thought you knew what the right decision was. But then a few months down the road you start to realize that maybe you hadn't thought through that decision completly, and you begin to regret it. You start to go over it in your head what you could have done that would have been better. You start to think what would it be like now if you had made another decision. It almost makes you stressed out to the point that you want to cry. Even though you know that you can do nothing to change it. Well thats exactly how I feel now. I don't know why but for the last couple of weeks I have been feeling a lot of regrets about the decisions I have made in the last years. I have always been known to just kinda go with the flow. I've never really expressed my opinions much. In fact I never really gave much thought to the fact that I may have my own opinions about some things. And now looking back, I really regret just sitting back and letting others make my decisions. Now I'm not saying that those decisions were bad ones, not at all. But they weren't my decisions. And I just really wish that there was some way to go back in time and change things. But maybe there is a reason that those events took place the way they did. Maybe my life wouldn't be the way it is now if it weren't for my life taking that course. But I just can't stop thinking about my regrets. It seems one or another crosses my mind on a daily basis. That is so stressful, and its so not good for me. But I just don't know how to let it go. Although I have all those regets, I can honestly say that I am quite satisfied with my life right now. I guess thats all I really need. To be happpy in the pesent, let go of the past, and look to the future. I feel a little better now that I got that off my chest. I hope that I can get over this, its really holding me back from being who I really am. Sorry to those of you who see me on a regular basis, if I have been depressing.

Oh the Joys of Animals

Today was a fun day, or not. It started at 6:30 this morning when I realized that I had slept through my alarm to take "Lizzy" outside at 3:30 and she had pooped in her kennel. So I took her outside, then when I went into the kitchen to get something to clean out her keenel I saw that there were two piles of diarrhea. At this point I didn't know whether it was from "Lilly" or "Diesel". But when I realized what it was I saw that "Lizzy" had just finished eating one of the piles! Ugh, so disgusting. So, I hurried and cleaned uo the remaining feces and proceeded to clean out the kennel and put "Lizzy" back to bed. I had just layed down to hear an animal heaving like it was going to vomit. Well indeed it was "Diesel". That's when I realized that he's the one that pooped in the kitchen. I get that cleaned up and lay back down. I was almost asleep when I hear another heaving sound. Then I smell the disgusting smell of feces. "Lizzy" had just thrown up the poop she had just eaten. So I then cleaned out her kennel for the second time and finally went back to bed. I awoke at 9:00 and went to wake Jake and Cambry up. As I walk into the room I see that "Diesel" had pooped in our room. Then I see that he had thrown up on our bed. It went through both sheets and into the mattress. So I told Jake it was his turn to clean up after the animals! What a great start to the day! I ended having to take "Diesel" into my work at the clinic and shave his butt because he had so much poop stuck in his fur it was hurting him. Then throughout the day I had to deal with the dog peeing and pooping in the house. So needless to say I had a wonderful and eventful day. Hopefully the cat will get better, and hopefully I can keep up on letting the dog out more often!

"Lizzy"

So after some debate and trying out a million names for our new puppy, we have decided on "Lizzy". She seems to respond to that name really well. So our puppy is now eight weeks old, and is growing fast, although she is still quite small since she was the runt. "Lizzy" is learning quickly, potty training is a difficult thing but she is catching on well. She already knows what "No" means, which is really handy since she is always getting into trouble. "Lizzy" is adorable, though. I just love the way her ears sit directly on top of her head but yet they are slighty perked up. I'm so happy I got a dog. I know that its hard at first especially when they are so little, but its totally worth it. Dogs are the best companions, they love you unconditionly, the don't judge, and they are always there for you when your sad or sick. As long as you take care of them they will take care of you. Its been kinda difficult the last week though, because Cambry is still sleeping in our room so I have had to sleep out on the couch until the dog is more kennel trained and doesn't have to go out so frequenlty. But Jake is working on getting her crib up so she can go into her own room. Its definately time for that.

So Cambry is doin really well with the crawling, She has yet to get up on her knees, but she can do the army crawl well. I think she may be getting another tooth because she has been so fussy. No matter where she is, what toys she has or who's holding her she is fussing. Its so tiring trying to find a way to soothe her. The last few nights she hasn't gone to bed until almost 1am. Then she wakes up at like 5 or 6. She used to sleep for a good eight hours. Not any more. Its so frustrating, I just don't know what to do. I'm so exhausted by the time I get to bed especially on the days I work. I just can't continue staying up till 1 then getting up every 3 hours with the dog and then having Cambry wide awake at 6. I feel so bad for Jake, too because when I 'm tired I can be very mean. I feel so bad because I know its not his fault but I'm just so tired and with Cambry fussy all the time its hard not to snap at him. Luckily he knows that I'm that way so I don't think he takes it too personally. I just hope she can get back into her regular sleep schedule soon!

Our New Puppy

So for the last month or so I have been dying to get a puppy. I've been doing training to become a professional dog trainer and its very difficult to practice on a dog thats not yours. So I have been trying to convince Jake to let me get a dog. We decided that it would be best for Cambry, the cats and the dog to get one as a puppy instead of a full grown one. The cats don't really like dogs much, so it would be easier for them to adjust if the dog starts out smaller than them. And it would be better for Cambry and the dog if its a puppy, so that way it can grow up learning to deal with Cambry pulling on him. And she can have a buddy. So I finally talked him into it, and we found a lady on Ksl that was giving away free Border Collie and Chocolate Labrador puppies. So we went and picked one up today! She is seven weeks old and is the runt of the litter. She is so adorable and tiny. She has more of the border collie markings so far, but they tend to change after they lose their puppy fur. So maybe she'll be a chocolate collie! She is the sweetest thing ever. She loves to cuddle and play, but she gets worn out easily. Its so cute when she just plopps down where she's at and just goes to sleep! The reason I keep calling it "She" is because we haven't come up with a name yet. We are trying to come up with a cool name. Either one that is really unique or one that just fits perfect to her personality/breed. We were thinking like "Juno." But we haven't decided yet. So if you guys have any ideas please let me know!! I'm so excited to have my puppy now.

Cambry's Doctor Appointment

So Cambry had her appointment with the Doctor Yesterday. She now weighs 16.7lbs and is 27 1/4 inches long. She is longer than most babies her age which puts her in the 74 percentile for that. But she is lean, so she is at only 34 percentile for her weight. But the doctor says she is perfect. All of her joints are working great, and her development is right on track. Except that she hasn't started to crawl yet, but we are working on it. She wasn't able to get her shots this time because we got a new Doctor and apparently her first docotr's office wasn't doing their job right. Every doctor is required to record any vaccinations given at any age to the Utah database. Well they didn't record neither one of her sets so according to Utah, Cambry has not had any shots. So now I have to go get them from her doctor and update her status. Its so irritating when they don't do what they are required to do. Like my first Ob-Gyn that didn't tell me about a blood test result that I ended up being on blodd thinners throughout my pregnancy for and will have to do for every pregnancy! But Cambry seemed to like this new Doctor. She was actually laughing at him!! Unlike her first Dr., who treated me like I was just an ignorant young mother. She didn't really treat Cambry like she was a baby, she seemed to just be another patient to her. You would think that if your going to make a career out of treating children you should be a little more fun. Oh well, I'm happy with her doctor now and I like the facility better, its closer and they are easier to work in appointments if you need one that day.

Some Changes

So Jake got a job at Ace Disposal. He now works from 1pm to 10pm. Its been really hard adjusting to Jake not being with me at night. We have had our routine that we do every night which involves Jake getting Cambry ready for a bath. Now I have to do it by myself. The first couple nights were hard. I missed him a lot. Some nights he's home by 10:30pm and we can spend some time talking. But other nights he's not home until after 11pm. So I'm already in bed. We have been going over to Jake's parents house everynight, and now its just me. I don't mind being there without Jake. But its just not the same. I never thought I would say this, but I miss his teasing at night.
But I guess its not as bad as I'm making it sound. I only work part time so we still get to see eachother during the day and he has saturdays and sundays off now instead of Monday and Tuesday. But its still hard dealing with the change. But its for the best. Now the babysitter doesn't have to watch Cambry so much, which is good for all of us involved. Speaking of Cambry, she is getting so big. She has another doctor's appointment on Monday. Not looking forward to that. But it will be good to see just how much she has grown. She will be seeing a new doctor this time. I just wasn't satisfied with her first one. So I hope that I like this one. So when I get the status of her growth I will post it. I think she is close to 15 or 16 pounds now. She is so heaving to carry, especially when she is in her carseat carrier. Holy cow, I should be so buff by now! So we'll see tomorrow.

Finally some good luck

So for the past 6 months or so we have had nothing but bad luck. First we screwed over by our apartments because they added on a whole bunch of fees onto our rent. Then we have been dealing with trying to pay hospital bills. Then it started to look up when we finally found our house after months of searching. Then that dissapeared with all the water leaks we have. But now Jake is getting a new job! He applied at ACE Disposal before the Holidays and he went in for two interviews. Then two weeks went by. He called them twice, the first time the guy told nothing had been decided due to the holdidays. So Jake gave it another week and called him back, no answer. Then Jake dropped his phone in a puddle and ruined it. So I decided to change his message to say that if they would like to reach him to call me. Thank goodness I did! Then next day after I changed it, the guy called and said he would like to offer him the job at $12/hr! Thats a dollar raise, and good benefits all around. We are so excited! His job now sucks so bad. He is treated like dirt and they pay him crap. They don't pay for holidays and their health benefits are so expensive! So now maybe we'll have a little extra money to spend on fixing the house.

Now for Cambry. She is now 6 1/2 months old. I started her on some carrots about a week ago and she liked it. Now she is going to get sweet potatoes this week. Its so much fun feeding her veggies! She is starting to learn how to drink from a cup. She thinks its so much fun! Her favorite though is to drink from a water bottle. She loves water. She is learning to wave. She'll just be sitting there and start waving her hand. She waved good bye to me on Saturday. She wouldn't do it while I was there but as soon as I got out to my car I saw her waving to me! It made me almmost cry! And she has this new thing with sticking her tongue out all the time. Its so cute. I can't believe how fast she is growing! I miss my newborn that weighed 7 lbs. Ah oh well I still love her. Now she can laugh and play with me. She is about due for her next shots so we'll see how much she's grown!