Regrets

Have you ever had to make a big decision, one that could change your life? And at the time you thought you knew what the right decision was. But then a few months down the road you start to realize that maybe you hadn't thought through that decision completly, and you begin to regret it. You start to go over it in your head what you could have done that would have been better. You start to think what would it be like now if you had made another decision. It almost makes you stressed out to the point that you want to cry. Even though you know that you can do nothing to change it. Well thats exactly how I feel now. I don't know why but for the last couple of weeks I have been feeling a lot of regrets about the decisions I have made in the last years. I have always been known to just kinda go with the flow. I've never really expressed my opinions much. In fact I never really gave much thought to the fact that I may have my own opinions about some things. And now looking back, I really regret just sitting back and letting others make my decisions. Now I'm not saying that those decisions were bad ones, not at all. But they weren't my decisions. And I just really wish that there was some way to go back in time and change things. But maybe there is a reason that those events took place the way they did. Maybe my life wouldn't be the way it is now if it weren't for my life taking that course. But I just can't stop thinking about my regrets. It seems one or another crosses my mind on a daily basis. That is so stressful, and its so not good for me. But I just don't know how to let it go. Although I have all those regets, I can honestly say that I am quite satisfied with my life right now. I guess thats all I really need. To be happpy in the pesent, let go of the past, and look to the future. I feel a little better now that I got that off my chest. I hope that I can get over this, its really holding me back from being who I really am. Sorry to those of you who see me on a regular basis, if I have been depressing.