I have way to much to do!!

I hate it when I have so much to do and not enough time to do any of it. I need to clean my entire house! Every room needs to be cleaned, and each one is going to take at least an hour! Then I have to worry about bills and Cambry and training "Lizzy". Now I have to find time to fit in Mary Kay and working on my Personal Progess book from Young Womens. Cambry doesn't help much. She makes it very difficult to do it all. Oh and I have to find time to lose weight. I think I just need to have someone take Cambry for a day so that I can at least get my cleaning done. That alone will relieve so much of the stress. Its so hard to get home from a long day at work and walk into an utter mess! I am so unorganized. I need a system to get everything where it belongs and to keep it there. It also doesn't help much that I have absolutely no motivation to do any of it. Deep down I really want to, its just getting the motivation to get up and start it, and then finish it! Does anyone have any suggestions to help me out?

Cambry's Update

So its been a while since I updated on what Cambry can now do! She can crawl now. Not just the army crawl but a real crawl. And boy is she fast. Its great to see her progress, but man do I miss it when she couldn't get around so well. We had to go buy a baby gate so that she can't get into the kitchen or go near the stairs. She has also learned to pull herself up to the couch! She is getting pretty good at it too. I can't believe how quickly she learns to perfect things after figuring out that she can do something. She got to be really good at crawling within two days of learning she can get around that way. Now she is already starting to try on walk along the couch after she pulls herself up! Its like one day she can't do something then two days later she has not only figured out that she can, but has then perfected it! I have such a smart little girl. But boy does she have a temper! If things don't do what she wants or something gets in the way she will scream and tense up! For instance, she has a toy that has a little compartment to put toys and stuff in, and I showed her how to open the lid. She picked it up immediatley, but then she kept getting mad because she couldn't get it to stay open long enough to get the toys out! It was so funny, she eventually ended up just pulling it off! I started laughing when I saw her do it! I'm afraid she is like me a little too much. I get mad when things don't go my way! But she also like her daddy and thinks its funny when you tell her "NO." She'll be reaching for something so I tell her no, she then will look at me, smile, then reach for it again and again and again! What little stinker!!! Oh but its so hard to get mad when she smiles. She has the most adorable little smile. It just melts anyone who sees it! I have to say that I have the best baby I have ever met. She has been sick for the last two weeks. We took her to the doctor after about 4 days of a runny nose, he said that its just a cold and should only last a week. Well two days later she developed a chesty cough and it just got worse over the next 5 days. So I took her back and the doctor listened to her rattling lungs and decided to send antibiotics. He said it wasn't pneumonia, thank goodness. Now it has been about 5 days since she started the antibiotics and her cough is gone. She is so happy. Although, she was still such a happy baby even when she was sick. What a little trooper! I love my daughter with all my heart!

Thanks for the support!

I just want to thank everyone for their support. I was depressed and feeling empty, and now with the help and encouragement of my friends and family, I am now happy and content. I have decided, as I said before, to join the LDS church. I feel good about my decision. I know that it is not going to be easy. I expect challenges in my path, but I know that those challenges will only make me a stronger person and so prove that I am worthy. I really hope that I can become a better person for my husband and my children to come. I have plenty of room for improvement in just about every aspect of my life and I want to change that. I know that the only way for me to better myself is through persistence and with the help of those who love and care about me. I look forward to working with those people to better myself and therefore my life. I want to be a better wife to my husband. I want to do everything I can to make him happy. I also want to be the best mom that I can be. I want to be able to teach my children by example as well as by letting them learn lessons of their own. I want to do everything I can to be with my family for eternity. If the LDS church is true, I'm still learning and cannot form a decision yet, then I need to do everything I can to ensure my eternal family. If I don't get what I want from this, then at least I can say that I tried. What more could I ask for. I love my little family, and I never want to be apart from them. When my family grows I know that I will grow along with it. I have changed tremendously just from having my daughter. My heart grows ever more larger with every passing day that I spend with my beautiful. I can't imagine how large my heart will grow to include my future family. I look forward to the journey ahead. Bring on the challenge!!!!

Faith

So lately I have been feeling sad and empty. I couldn't figure out why. I would just keep getting these feelings that something was missing. It started out with me constantly thinking about my mistakes. That made me really depressed. Then I started getting these feelings of emptiness. The feeling just wouldn't go away. It kept nagging and nagging at me until I would start to cry. The girls at work would ask me if I was OK. And I didn't know what to tell them. I really didn't know if I was OK. So I decided to just get it off my chest that I was having these feelings that I couldn't explain. I was scared that maybe something had happened to a loved one and I just hadn't found out yet, but my subconscious mind knew something was wrong. So I put up a status on facebook about my feelings. I received a message from someone close to me. She told me that she had been wanting to talk to me about joining to LDS Church for some time, but she didn't know how to approach me about it. As soon as I read this message, my eyes filled with tears. It was like she knew exactly what I needed. Now, for those of you that don't know, I was never baptised but I had attended Church on a few occasions. My husbands family is active in the LDS Church. I had had every intention of raising Cambry in the church. But I had never really thought about it for myself. Then when my sister in law left on her mission a year and a half ago, I began to think about it. I had never really understood the faith that people have in their religion. But after reading her emails, seeing her talk about how much faith she had and how much it has made her a better person I began to think that maybe that's what I need. I never expressed these feelings because I wasn't sure if I wanted to act on them yet. So when I read that message, and I felt so overwhelmed with joy, I knew that this is definately what I need. So lets hope that I can gain the faith that I need.